I have the urge to write again. Funny that pregnancy does that to me. I guess because it is such a mysterious and extraordinary process, and because my body is changing hourly and I can hardly keep up. Right now, in this first week since we found out, it all seems so new and exciting and SECRET! I feel like it must be written all over my face, but somehow I manage to say "Life is good. Nothing much going on" with a straight face. Maybe I'm a horrible liar and folks are just kind to not pry any farther.
I'm feeling tired alot. Exhausted really. For some reason, when I need sleep the most, I wake up in the night with an overactive brain and can't get the rest that I need. Other than that, I am feeling pretty good. Not much nausea or aches yet. Sometimes, I wish for more symptoms, so reassure me that this is real.
Cody and I have been weighing ourselves in the morning recently. The scale went down to a level I haven't seen in many years this morning. It is bittersweet for me. I am proud that I have been dedicated to getting in better shape and feeling healthy these past few months. But, I need to start reversing my mindset and trying to have a very healthy pregnancy, which will mean watching the scale go up and being glad for what that means. It will be a hard transition. I love my new clothes. I love things not being tight. But, I want to remember this feeling, so that I have the determination to get back here again someday. I have done it once, I can do it again after having a healthy, fit pregnancy. My new mantra.
I am enjoying my simple moments with Cody more now. Playing snow plow with the big comforter (I get to be the foundation, laying flat on my belly while Cody "drives" with all the pillows piled on top of me) or playing 20 rounds of dominos by the fire. They are all precious and I want to savor these easy times with him. Life is going to get a lot more complicated very soon. I hope he will thank us someday...
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